I just need to put this somewhere.

I am afraid to say how I really feel right now in pretty much any situation because I feel like my emotions are on overdrive.

I am afraid to be me again. Do I burn people out? Do I hurt people? Do I overwhelm people?

I need to feel safe again. In something. I’m in constant fight/flight/freeze response.

I am afraid to show my heart. My heart turns people away after awhile.

I am so angry. And I don’t like anger.

I am curled up in a corner, hiding behind my walls. I think I’ll be here for awhile – regrouping.

I really don’t want to be me sometimes. I wish I could shut myself off. Maybe then I’d be manageable. You think I’m exhausting? I exhaust myself. And I refuse to take part in spiritual bypassing. So here I am.

Here’s a glimpse into the shadows.

Written by Luna

I am unapologetically running as fast as I can into the unknown and cursing at myself the entire time for it.